This week!

I dont think this week could have any more going on in it. On top of DQ getting busy and trying to keep up with cakes and my normal stuff. I have EKG on Monday, Tuesday new ice cream machine being installed, Wednesday procedure for my chemo port (Which I was told I have to take it easy for a day or two cause it is going right above my right breast and it will hurt) Then on Friday is the big day it is Pet Scan and MRI day.

I am nervous for the results for Friday ... I am scared to know if it has spread... I am probably going to cry like a big baby knowing if it has not spread. Not knowing if there is cancer in any other part of body though is weighing heavily on me.  I can tell I think about it to much when I am alone.

Yes I am a positive person, I stay happy most of the time, and yes I am determined to kick Cancers ass. I am driven by running the family business and saying I BEAT CANCER! But there are times I am sad as hell and just want my mom. I think it is all crazy to me because Mom and Dad moved, and my sisters are moving ... I have DQ to run and want to keep it successful but CRAP I have Cancer too.

I been feeling good I just dont eat alot ... I have to make myself eat. I am just not hungry. I also sleep alot. I get very tired very easily. I just keep thinking of my Aunt Nancy the most. She is My moms sister who passed away at 48. In May 2000, Nancy passed away from Breast Cancer and 9 Brain Tumors. My doctor feels that the same cancer I have is what she had because of how aggressive hers was and quickly it all happened. So I know I have angels on my side and I hope they been putting in good words for me.

I will keep you all posted on the next steps in my journey!

Welcome!

Welcome to my blog .... Grab some water and take a seat this is going to be a bumping ride! My life changed March 27th around 1:30pm. I had just got done having lunch with my middle sister Melissa at the new Portillos in Northbrook. I had a voice mail from my doctor who said he would just meet with me in his office on Tuesday with the results so emotionally I was all set to here them the following day. So, I call the office back the doctor calls me back yet again to tell me I have Breast Cancer. A subject that has touched me since I lost my Aunt Nancy May 27th, 2000 She was 48 ... She was 4 years older then I am at this moment when she passed and she had Breast cancer and 9 brain tumors. So when it comes to hitting home this was the closest that this diseased as hit until now. 

Talk about rocking my world! 

I just took over a family business that my parents have owned for 43 years. This is suppose to be my time to work hard, make some money, get the store in order of how I would like, and have fun of course. Now, thats up in the air depending on treatment and surgery. I think that is the scariest part of all of this, I am the head person that knows everything at the store and now I am making sure all my ducks are in a row before I start treatment to make sure the start of season goes smoothly. 

1:30pm Monday March 27th it all changed, The moment of shock lasted for 2 days. The WHY THE HELL ME moments. The crying, I cried myself out of tears. 
And now the boxing gloves have come on to fight. I have 3 kids and a granddaughter to see their futures grow. I have a store to make successful and many friends to make magical memories with. Trying to stay positive is easier to day then to do, I have my reason to be positive of course. I also have my moments of crying and being upset.
I can say " I have Breast Cancer" without crying, it took a few days to accomplish that. 

Now my next hurdle it to do my PET Scan to make sure it has not spread.